Imaginary Husband

 

 

After all that’s left

And that’s not much

You ask yourself

Did you missed something?

Is this all in your mind

Is it real?

Or, because you wanted it so bad,

Product of your imagination

Dream.

Always alone

With no one to talk to

With no one to share

Hopes and dreams.

Nobody to help you

In need.

Can I say I am not alone?

Can I say I have someone on my own?

When I smile

He’s not there

When I cry

He’s not there

When I’m happy and when I’m sad

He don’t care

He’s not there!

If I need help

He can’t

When I ask something simple

Easy

He doesn’t have time

He’s always busy

And sometimes I don’t even know

If he’s alive

But who cares?

As long if he’s enjoying his time!

And you, who the fuck cares

Wait when he appears

And need you again!

Am I alone?

I guess I could say

Because everything in this marriage

I have do to by myself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On My Own

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the cold

In the rain

In the dark

Alone

Morning

Waiting for the bus

Lot of things on my mind

Empty look

In my eyes

Lot of pain in my heart

Why?

Why?

Why?

Feeling so alone

Far away from home

Was all this worth it

Why all this for

If I only had…

 

All this illusions felt apart

Long time ago

I know there’ll never be

Anybody next to me

No friend

No lover

It’s just me…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In The Middle

 

 

Not to love

And not to hate

Not to early

Not to late

Little bit right

And little bit left

In the middle

Confused

Feeling abused

Just going thru

Blind

Just trying to pass thru

Loving you

In the middle

 

 

 

 

 

How could you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

How could you leave me here

Alone

In the dark

Hungry

How could you just go away

Not love me

Not care

How could you look at

Me destroying myself

Smoking

Drinking

Using drugs

Selling myself

For money

How could you not see

You are all what I have

How could you just go away?

 

 

 

 

 

 

I dreamed … You

 

 

I dreamed you last night

You were all in white

On the beach

Beautiful blue see

Sun was shining

But there was no me

You were smiling

You looked happy

Walking around

Wind playing with your hair

Perfect picture

But something’s missing there…

 

 

I dreamed you last night

You were all in white

Even a dream is not perfect

You were alone

Just a dream

Just in my head

 

 

 

 

 

To You

On the rainy day

And when sky is blue

In the morning

And when the day is thru

I can’t help it

I love you

I have not much to give

For many things

I never had chance to say

But my love is real

And I am going to stay

Another year

Time goes fast

I wish you all the best

Hope whatever you want

It’s going to last

Without present

But few words from my heart

Is more then money

Can buy

My love for you

Is more then a gift

It’s real

And it’s true

Happy birthday, bebe

I love you

 

 

 

 

 

 

All Queen’s Men

 

 

 

 

 

 

From USA and Canada

To Lebanon , Germany

And Romania

Like a volunteers

For a great war

Soldiers

Ready to go

Waiting for

Queens call

 

Queen is confused

Already engaged

But ready to choose

Which soldier to use

One more battle to lose

But persisting this war

Fighting, willing to lose her head

For love

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Can Do Much Better

 

 

 

 

I believe we can be together

But all my friends

I can do much better

 

I refuse to believe

They maybe right

I refuse

I’m willing to fight

 

Right now

I’m a bit confuse

So many people

Difficult to choose

 

I believe we can be together

But if nothing change soon

I’m sure

I can do much better

 

 

 

 

 

Where Are You Now

 

 

 

 

So many days

So many nights

Passed by

Not knowing

Where you are

What you do

What’s happening

And all this worries me

But not you

I wish you’ll understand

How it feels when you care

But hopeless

Not knowing

And when you don’t dare

To ask to know

To not piss you off

Again

Because you do

Whatever you want to do

Big mystery for everybody

But you

 

Fuck this shit!

 

 

 

 

 

In my Heart

 

 

 

 

 

Such a small place

Stored many things

Saved lot of memories

And there is still space

 

So many people inside

So many memories alive

So many pictures

To many lives

 

Deep inside

In that small space

You took your place

Pushing thru

Making it your home

Making me to love you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lazy Sunday

 

 

Nothing to do

Nowhere to go

Nothing on TV

Just stupid songs on the radio

 

Can’t eat

Can’t sleep

My head hurts

I’m moving slow

 

I wish you were here

So we could talk

About future

Places we want to go

 

I hate days

When I am alone

I hate Sundays

I hate to stay at home

 

 

So Difficult

 

 

 

Just hearing your voice

Doesn’t let me to choose

Gives me no choice

But to admit

To come out and say

Let everybody know

How I feel

That I love you for real

 

So difficult.

I’m sitting here

With you in my heart

In my head

Knowing you don’t love me back

And you never will

But still

I believe it could change

Because I know how I feel

And that is for real

And I just need to find the way

Make it clear

That you are what I want

What I need

So difficult.

 

 

 

 

What To Do Next

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Do I know what I want

What’s best for me

Do I

Do I at all

 

Everything in the same time

No order at all

Getting crazy

Just want to give up and go

 

 

Go where

And what to do

No escape

From love

 

 

 

 

 

 

Would You Still Love Me

 

 

 

 

 

If I told you

Who I am

Where I’m coming from

What I did

And still do

All about me

My hopes and my dreams

My qualities

And my fears

My worries

And the pain

How I feel

What makes me happy

And sad

Why I am what I am

Why I am sick

Why I can stand

Many things I do

Misery that my life puts me thru

If I tell you ALL

If I tell you I love you

Would you, would you say

I love you too?